Blank Thoughts

as usual, i'm struggling to keep awake. why does it have to rain on a MONDAY morning!?

and when it's so warm last night! ..darn it, it's only freaking 9AM.

i fell like a big potato for the first time in years on a fateful friday night, when my mom decided to mop the floor. the neighbours downstairs must have thought that their ceiling was crashing down on them. funny thing is, i was wearing shoes. in the mind to season them as well as to avoid getting cold clammy toes from the wet floor. a yelp, and i ended up with a ugly bruise on my knee when i flew up and landed sideways. stunned like a fish suddenly out of the water. and started wriggling like one on the damp floor.

at least i fell down at home with that lousy pair of shoes that grip at water. if i fell down in public on a rainy day like that, i think i'll stick my face in a nearby puddle and pretend to drown.

on bigger matters. melvyn-the-pianist-who-evaded-NS, had backed out of a sold out concert in esplanade?! that's the darndest stupid thing. if he has the slightest gratitude for Singapore who had just let him off with a 3K fine instead of throwing him into a cell, he should set aside his own personal feelings of what ugly things others are saying about him and carry on with his concert and judging some whatnot piano competition. that is the only thing he can do now to contribute to Singapore, being an accomplished pianist and all. and that is prolly the only thing, he could redeem himself! not that bloody 3K he forked out for that stupid fine.

but no, again, he took the easy way out. evade evade evade. what an utter disappointment.

and anyway, i always thought that imprisoning such people who evade NS with an intention is effective. what, if boys who have big shots as parents or parents who dote on their sons so much so that they rather pay than to have their sons crawl around in mud, they need to just pay a relatively meagre 3K fine to Singapore and that's it? if i'm a guy, and i've the intention to contribute to Singapore in another way than NS, i can evade it first? if everyone thinks that way, i doubt Singapore has anyone to defend the country.

and maybe even, he was not thinking that he will contribute to Singapore by being an accomplished pianist. or bringing Singapore into the classical piano music world. if it's anything at all, it could be just all about himself. achievements, and glory for himself. only that his identity of being a Singaporean just happens to come into place. and so Singapore happens to be mentioned. not like Singapore has cultivated his talents nor made him who he was. he just happened to be born here in Singapore.

a child does not ask to be born to his parents, but he has responsibilities to take care of them when he grows up and become strong. likewise, we do not ask to be Singaporeans, but we all have responsibilities towards our own country. it just isn't fair that people who are not fit enough, or believe that they are women entrapped in men's bodies, are still serving time in NS. they didn't want to, but at least they did or know that they need to. they are courageous to face their resposibilities.

i despise this man. melvyn tan.