it's the last day of 2005.
and there's an irritating echo-y crooning of hokkien songs coming from the market near my home. argh. not loud enough to get me all ruffled, but i never liked the yodelling anyway. shut up already. i really wonder how the non-chinese can stand these ge-tais.
why isn't it raining so that the countdown parties will be ruined? yes, i think that ge-tai is supposedly to be a countdown 'party'.
o yes, i'm the grinch to new year too.
went to planet fitness with Ass earlier in the evening yesterday. and it was... so huge. kinda cheap, come to think about it, 40 a month, gym and classes included. but to fork out 1000 straight for 2 years? i wonder if there's instalments to their payments.
then went over to Ass's place to stayover along with Kay. we're getting old - sleeping earlier and waking up later now. we didn't even do much at her place but to get supper at chomp chomp. which is.. pretty nice and smoky. back at her place, we discussed about tabloids: which celebrities' boobs belonged into their categories as stated in 8Days - which are fake and real, an ugly baby given birth by a local celebrity couple, the hottest blogger on FHM who doesn't look too hot anymore cos somehow her looks have changed... (again?) and about her denying her surgeries. who's just pretty, and who's beautiful but not pretty. i still think that angelina jolie is beautiful even tho' Ass hates to admit it. natalie portman is too. hm, does milla jovovich count too? i think gong li can prolly be quite beautiful. zhang ziyi, is more pretty than beautiful tho.
ooo, i'm so bored!!! napped through the evening after trying to read a book. had dinner with family and was a little put off by my dad's hyperactive and loud antics cos he was a little tipsy. he was a little repetitive too.
i'm so bored.. *sniffle*
o yah, and it's Ass's lunar birthday today. and she gotta eat some eggs under a tree today. i picture that to be pretty comical. happy chinese birthday Ass~
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Saturday, December 24, 2005
MERRY CHRISTMAS!! (...eve...)
met with Kay & Ass yesterday finally. after so long. everything is pretty much the same. we fixed a much earlier meeting time and a different meeting place, but to end up meeting much later and at another place. this time, at Ass's house.
it's a taboo to meet early.
the gift exchange was... dunno what to say. i was whining more than saying anything else. one mango, one mint. mint for eating if alright, and for shampoos and scrubs and tea and everything else. but that, it smells like medicated oil. hm, like something that i could use when i'm really old and dry. WAHAHAHA.
but too bad that expires within 3 months now.
Kay says she's going to buy me more stuffs when she's over at Hong Kong. i've put down that in black and white here Kay! hiak.
it's quite funny la. and maybe i'm just a stick-in-the-mud, or prude as Ass called me. and... i don't know where to hide it.
and what are the plans for next friday? are we going clubbing? or what did Kay say about partying in a big group?
Thursday, December 22, 2005
King Kong
watched King Kong today with JX. it was a long good show. afterall, it's a classic. or, prolly cos i hadn't been to the movies for the longest of time.. and i was like a kid being brought to the movies the first time by my parents all over again.
i was impressed that they managed to inject so much expressions onto the gigantic ape's face. and made viewers feel so much for Kong. hell, they made him pout after throwing a kid's tantrums? anger, sadness, betrayal, loneliness, and even a tinge of fear at the back. ok, maybe i haven't been watching movies too much for a long time. and i've lost touch with what they could do with technology nowadays.
but somehow, seeing a minature oversized ape thumping his chest at the top of a skyscraper that looked like a toy from the pilot's far off view made me sad. it's the intervention of Man that its life changed, and it's cos of Man that it felt threatened, and it's cos of Man, that it was driven to its death. seek it out cos it's mythical, it's strange, it's different. and then because of the very same reasons, we find it dangerous. and so we kill it. for our own survival. if only we had left it alone. and i'm not just talking about King Kongs. damn humans.
p.s.: marina square is a humongous maze now!
i was impressed that they managed to inject so much expressions onto the gigantic ape's face. and made viewers feel so much for Kong. hell, they made him pout after throwing a kid's tantrums? anger, sadness, betrayal, loneliness, and even a tinge of fear at the back. ok, maybe i haven't been watching movies too much for a long time. and i've lost touch with what they could do with technology nowadays.
but somehow, seeing a minature oversized ape thumping his chest at the top of a skyscraper that looked like a toy from the pilot's far off view made me sad. it's the intervention of Man that its life changed, and it's cos of Man that it felt threatened, and it's cos of Man, that it was driven to its death. seek it out cos it's mythical, it's strange, it's different. and then because of the very same reasons, we find it dangerous. and so we kill it. for our own survival. if only we had left it alone. and i'm not just talking about King Kongs. damn humans.
p.s.: marina square is a humongous maze now!
Monday, December 19, 2005
there was a JC class gathering last friday, and it was nice meeting some of my friends that i haven't been seeing for a really long time. it's like, you wouldn't realise that you're missing them until you've seen them, which is rather weird. conversations were flying about and across each other at the table. and it was, kinda heartwarming, catching up. the looks on all of my friends' faces when they know that i'm engaged, were classic. kinda funny actually. and my reaction could be pretty comical too, blushing and laughing and taking in everyone's gaping looks.
and at the end of it all, they got to see my fiance when he picked me up. a tad awkward, and JX was feeling odder i guess. cos a friend wanted to take pictures of just the both of us while the others looked on.
missed ying and WJ. gotta catch up!
.......................................................................
slept pretty a lot during the weekend. and today, i woke up to try to answer a phone call only to knock my senses out with the top bunk of my double-bunk bed. went back to concussion. after a few minutes, i woke up groggily and went about the whole day with a bump on my already-full-of-dents-head.
watched Legally Blonde tonight. made me miss Kay and Ass. it's a silly bimbotic chick flick, but it's the sisterhood thingy i guess? we even caught the sequel to this show. i believe, in a weird way, there is an Elle Woods in every girl on earth.
"Beeeennnd.... and SNAP!"
*shudder*
hahahahaha!!
and at the end of it all, they got to see my fiance when he picked me up. a tad awkward, and JX was feeling odder i guess. cos a friend wanted to take pictures of just the both of us while the others looked on.
missed ying and WJ. gotta catch up!
.......................................................................
slept pretty a lot during the weekend. and today, i woke up to try to answer a phone call only to knock my senses out with the top bunk of my double-bunk bed. went back to concussion. after a few minutes, i woke up groggily and went about the whole day with a bump on my already-full-of-dents-head.
watched Legally Blonde tonight. made me miss Kay and Ass. it's a silly bimbotic chick flick, but it's the sisterhood thingy i guess? we even caught the sequel to this show. i believe, in a weird way, there is an Elle Woods in every girl on earth.
"Beeeennnd.... and SNAP!"
*shudder*
hahahahaha!!
Friday, December 16, 2005
christmas is like, about a week away. and i am hardly in the mood. i mean, i don't look forward to it or whatsoever. so what if it's here, and so what if it's gone? hardly matters.
o no, is it my turn to be the grinch this year?
here i am, at home, finally had my time on the home pc. and... nothing to do. nothing particularly to blog about. how about wrapping up this year for myself?
a little early, but i won't have time later. too busy welcoming 2006, and all the wars and bombs and natural disasters that come along with it.
this year, i would say, isn't really that a fabulous year for me? gotta break out of my schooling rut and earning pennies to get by. family problems, miscommunications here and there, feeling worthless. oh, i guess that's why they have so much of the depression adverts running on TV and put up at bus stops. it's when you review how you've spent your year, and realized, you've nothing much done and you'd wasted a year away. festive seasons make one more depressed if they're alone, or cashless, or both. so they commit suicide. it's true. i think i read it somewhere.
ok back to my 2005. i finally graduated after many many years. but to find myself as lost as the first day i went to kindergarten. transition sucks. more appropriately said, growing up sucks. good jobs aren't easy to come by. or to spot. or available. seriously, i doubt i've spent good time working on my resume since i'd graduated. this is bad.
tho' the natural disasters all over the world has not impacted on my personally in any way, it feels sad that the world is like falling apart, or... not. any place hardly feels safe anymore. places bombed into smoke, places that are washed away by rain and waves. i'll just stay home in my room and wait for the wave to take me away on my bed. actually if the waves can reach 13th stories high, Singapore is very much gone.
and my health was not really that great. plus my back always felt like it's breaking. for this year, i hardly touch my bow. and i forget how it is like to be in archery. is/was it a passion, that i'm forgetting? but i don't like it.. that my bow is collecting dust on my table. i resolve, that i'm returning to it!!
my uncle got posted to Shanghai for his job, and he brought the whole family along with him. and gatherings each week now, are quieter without the 3 littlest cousins. i miss them and i feel sad that we are all missing out a big part of their growing up processes.
and cos i'm working, or was, since i'm jobless now, JX and i had issues to work out with. getting used to each other schedules, trying to understand each other. wasn't easy. makes me wish even more that i'm still schooling and lesser responsibilities. same with K and S, S is always busy now, and K is also busy with her projects. it's much difficult to plan to meet, and we meet much lesser. and friends whom i was closer to in Uni, we didn't really keep in contact, as much to feel comfortable. until prolly recently. somehow, i feel more alone, this year.
good things happen too. my sis and i resolved certain issues, she mellowed... a little. it has been a lousy year for her too, and she has opened up more to me. and me to her. don't know how and since when, we had drifted. and of course, i was happily engaged to JX this year in July. (and with regards to the engagement treats, it'll have to be next year, K&S! tight on cash.) and there was the bali trip i went with K and S around in mid-year. i had fun, but not particularly the same kinda fun like the Clubmed Bintan. prolly it's the international buffet at clubmed that made me think it's way better. but anyways, lucky we visited it then, before the bombing again later this year.
arh.. it gets more depressing, after all these. there are like more negative things than positive things. did someone say that 2006 is going to be worse?
o no, is it my turn to be the grinch this year?
here i am, at home, finally had my time on the home pc. and... nothing to do. nothing particularly to blog about. how about wrapping up this year for myself?
a little early, but i won't have time later. too busy welcoming 2006, and all the wars and bombs and natural disasters that come along with it.
this year, i would say, isn't really that a fabulous year for me? gotta break out of my schooling rut and earning pennies to get by. family problems, miscommunications here and there, feeling worthless. oh, i guess that's why they have so much of the depression adverts running on TV and put up at bus stops. it's when you review how you've spent your year, and realized, you've nothing much done and you'd wasted a year away. festive seasons make one more depressed if they're alone, or cashless, or both. so they commit suicide. it's true. i think i read it somewhere.
ok back to my 2005. i finally graduated after many many years. but to find myself as lost as the first day i went to kindergarten. transition sucks. more appropriately said, growing up sucks. good jobs aren't easy to come by. or to spot. or available. seriously, i doubt i've spent good time working on my resume since i'd graduated. this is bad.
tho' the natural disasters all over the world has not impacted on my personally in any way, it feels sad that the world is like falling apart, or... not. any place hardly feels safe anymore. places bombed into smoke, places that are washed away by rain and waves. i'll just stay home in my room and wait for the wave to take me away on my bed. actually if the waves can reach 13th stories high, Singapore is very much gone.
and my health was not really that great. plus my back always felt like it's breaking. for this year, i hardly touch my bow. and i forget how it is like to be in archery. is/was it a passion, that i'm forgetting? but i don't like it.. that my bow is collecting dust on my table. i resolve, that i'm returning to it!!
my uncle got posted to Shanghai for his job, and he brought the whole family along with him. and gatherings each week now, are quieter without the 3 littlest cousins. i miss them and i feel sad that we are all missing out a big part of their growing up processes.
and cos i'm working, or was, since i'm jobless now, JX and i had issues to work out with. getting used to each other schedules, trying to understand each other. wasn't easy. makes me wish even more that i'm still schooling and lesser responsibilities. same with K and S, S is always busy now, and K is also busy with her projects. it's much difficult to plan to meet, and we meet much lesser. and friends whom i was closer to in Uni, we didn't really keep in contact, as much to feel comfortable. until prolly recently. somehow, i feel more alone, this year.
good things happen too. my sis and i resolved certain issues, she mellowed... a little. it has been a lousy year for her too, and she has opened up more to me. and me to her. don't know how and since when, we had drifted. and of course, i was happily engaged to JX this year in July. (and with regards to the engagement treats, it'll have to be next year, K&S! tight on cash.) and there was the bali trip i went with K and S around in mid-year. i had fun, but not particularly the same kinda fun like the Clubmed Bintan. prolly it's the international buffet at clubmed that made me think it's way better. but anyways, lucky we visited it then, before the bombing again later this year.
arh.. it gets more depressing, after all these. there are like more negative things than positive things. did someone say that 2006 is going to be worse?
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
BEAUTIFUL day today, isn't it? the sky is bright and cloudy, the trees are swaying, birds are chirping. they're all celebrating my LAST day at work here with me!
hm. i don't know if that is actually good or bad. after all, i'm paid to surf the net and play games.
the only setback is the struggle to pull myself up from my bed, which gets really quite sticky at 6 in the freaking morning. and 3 in the afternoon, when the struggle to keep awake is inevitable. yes, even at playing games or surfing porn.
ha ha ha.
finally i can sleep in tomorrow.
YEHHH!!
hm. i don't know if that is actually good or bad. after all, i'm paid to surf the net and play games.
the only setback is the struggle to pull myself up from my bed, which gets really quite sticky at 6 in the freaking morning. and 3 in the afternoon, when the struggle to keep awake is inevitable. yes, even at playing games or surfing porn.
ha ha ha.
finally i can sleep in tomorrow.
YEHHH!!
Monday, December 05, 2005
was packing my wardrobe with my sis, throwing out dated clothes and stuffs that are forgotten and not to be seen in public.
i can't believe that i actually wore those.
- baggy 3/4s that look like two skirts stitched together.
- awful looking coloured shirts like purple and green, that my friends made fun of before and subsequently even had a bird plummet its shit on the ugly shirt, making my crazy friend doubled up even more saying that even a bird can't stand it.
- baggy long sleeves shirt that makes me look like a blob of formless thing. and a long sleeves shirt in the design of a cell inmate's uniform. black and white horizontal stripes.
- tops so small that they looked odd still sitting in our wardrobe with the other grownup clothes. shouldn't they be gone like a decade ago.. when we're significantly half our size. i don't remember either me or my sis being rake-thin recently.
- tops so short that it's like we had our belly buttons right beneath our boobies.
- shorts that looked like used garbage bags (even though it's for sleeping...)
what a dork i was. i don't deny that i have fashion disasters now and then, (but not much since i'm always wearing the same stuffs now) but what i was thinking then???
i can't believe that i actually wore those.
- baggy 3/4s that look like two skirts stitched together.
- awful looking coloured shirts like purple and green, that my friends made fun of before and subsequently even had a bird plummet its shit on the ugly shirt, making my crazy friend doubled up even more saying that even a bird can't stand it.
- baggy long sleeves shirt that makes me look like a blob of formless thing. and a long sleeves shirt in the design of a cell inmate's uniform. black and white horizontal stripes.
- tops so small that they looked odd still sitting in our wardrobe with the other grownup clothes. shouldn't they be gone like a decade ago.. when we're significantly half our size. i don't remember either me or my sis being rake-thin recently.
- tops so short that it's like we had our belly buttons right beneath our boobies.
- shorts that looked like used garbage bags (even though it's for sleeping...)
what a dork i was. i don't deny that i have fashion disasters now and then, (but not much since i'm always wearing the same stuffs now) but what i was thinking then???
WTF..
<<http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=N2hwwsvxi6I&search=coin%20dexterity%20tricks>>
Kay and Ass, isn't that the bus stop we normally would meet if we all had bus concessions!
<<http://www.youtube.com/watch.php?v=N2hwwsvxi6I&search=coin%20dexterity%20tricks>>
Kay and Ass, isn't that the bus stop we normally would meet if we all had bus concessions!
as usual, i'm struggling to keep awake. why does it have to rain on a MONDAY morning!?
and when it's so warm last night! ..darn it, it's only freaking 9AM.
i fell like a big potato for the first time in years on a fateful friday night, when my mom decided to mop the floor. the neighbours downstairs must have thought that their ceiling was crashing down on them. funny thing is, i was wearing shoes. in the mind to season them as well as to avoid getting cold clammy toes from the wet floor. a yelp, and i ended up with a ugly bruise on my knee when i flew up and landed sideways. stunned like a fish suddenly out of the water. and started wriggling like one on the damp floor.
at least i fell down at home with that lousy pair of shoes that grip at water. if i fell down in public on a rainy day like that, i think i'll stick my face in a nearby puddle and pretend to drown.
on bigger matters. melvyn-the-pianist-who-evaded-NS, had backed out of a sold out concert in esplanade?! that's the darndest stupid thing. if he has the slightest gratitude for Singapore who had just let him off with a 3K fine instead of throwing him into a cell, he should set aside his own personal feelings of what ugly things others are saying about him and carry on with his concert and judging some whatnot piano competition. that is the only thing he can do now to contribute to Singapore, being an accomplished pianist and all. and that is prolly the only thing, he could redeem himself! not that bloody 3K he forked out for that stupid fine.
but no, again, he took the easy way out. evade evade evade. what an utter disappointment.
and anyway, i always thought that imprisoning such people who evade NS with an intention is effective. what, if boys who have big shots as parents or parents who dote on their sons so much so that they rather pay than to have their sons crawl around in mud, they need to just pay a relatively meagre 3K fine to Singapore and that's it? if i'm a guy, and i've the intention to contribute to Singapore in another way than NS, i can evade it first? if everyone thinks that way, i doubt Singapore has anyone to defend the country.
and maybe even, he was not thinking that he will contribute to Singapore by being an accomplished pianist. or bringing Singapore into the classical piano music world. if it's anything at all, it could be just all about himself. achievements, and glory for himself. only that his identity of being a Singaporean just happens to come into place. and so Singapore happens to be mentioned. not like Singapore has cultivated his talents nor made him who he was. he just happened to be born here in Singapore.
a child does not ask to be born to his parents, but he has responsibilities to take care of them when he grows up and become strong. likewise, we do not ask to be Singaporeans, but we all have responsibilities towards our own country. it just isn't fair that people who are not fit enough, or believe that they are women entrapped in men's bodies, are still serving time in NS. they didn't want to, but at least they did or know that they need to. they are courageous to face their resposibilities.
i despise this man. melvyn tan.
and when it's so warm last night! ..darn it, it's only freaking 9AM.
i fell like a big potato for the first time in years on a fateful friday night, when my mom decided to mop the floor. the neighbours downstairs must have thought that their ceiling was crashing down on them. funny thing is, i was wearing shoes. in the mind to season them as well as to avoid getting cold clammy toes from the wet floor. a yelp, and i ended up with a ugly bruise on my knee when i flew up and landed sideways. stunned like a fish suddenly out of the water. and started wriggling like one on the damp floor.
at least i fell down at home with that lousy pair of shoes that grip at water. if i fell down in public on a rainy day like that, i think i'll stick my face in a nearby puddle and pretend to drown.
on bigger matters. melvyn-the-pianist-who-evaded-NS, had backed out of a sold out concert in esplanade?! that's the darndest stupid thing. if he has the slightest gratitude for Singapore who had just let him off with a 3K fine instead of throwing him into a cell, he should set aside his own personal feelings of what ugly things others are saying about him and carry on with his concert and judging some whatnot piano competition. that is the only thing he can do now to contribute to Singapore, being an accomplished pianist and all. and that is prolly the only thing, he could redeem himself! not that bloody 3K he forked out for that stupid fine.
but no, again, he took the easy way out. evade evade evade. what an utter disappointment.
and anyway, i always thought that imprisoning such people who evade NS with an intention is effective. what, if boys who have big shots as parents or parents who dote on their sons so much so that they rather pay than to have their sons crawl around in mud, they need to just pay a relatively meagre 3K fine to Singapore and that's it? if i'm a guy, and i've the intention to contribute to Singapore in another way than NS, i can evade it first? if everyone thinks that way, i doubt Singapore has anyone to defend the country.
and maybe even, he was not thinking that he will contribute to Singapore by being an accomplished pianist. or bringing Singapore into the classical piano music world. if it's anything at all, it could be just all about himself. achievements, and glory for himself. only that his identity of being a Singaporean just happens to come into place. and so Singapore happens to be mentioned. not like Singapore has cultivated his talents nor made him who he was. he just happened to be born here in Singapore.
a child does not ask to be born to his parents, but he has responsibilities to take care of them when he grows up and become strong. likewise, we do not ask to be Singaporeans, but we all have responsibilities towards our own country. it just isn't fair that people who are not fit enough, or believe that they are women entrapped in men's bodies, are still serving time in NS. they didn't want to, but at least they did or know that they need to. they are courageous to face their resposibilities.
i despise this man. melvyn tan.
Friday, December 02, 2005
i was so frigging busy yesterday. trying to keep awake and play games. i was even like a SEA Games fanatic - kept on refreshing the results page to see if they had uploaded the archery results.
basically, i was paid to do nothing. absolutely nothing. which is supposedly to be good. cos if i'm at home jobless, that's prolly what i would be doing too.
but oh, the struggle to keep awake.
it's like i was paid to keep awake.
ok, today's friday!! and my free pay is going to end on tuesday. i don't know if they're going to extend my stay, but i doubt not. why would they want to extend my stay for keeping awake. if they'd any job they would shove it to my face already.
never knew i could know so much about hollywood's gossips and entertainment news.
ah.. i'll just go play yahoo games.. again.
basically, i was paid to do nothing. absolutely nothing. which is supposedly to be good. cos if i'm at home jobless, that's prolly what i would be doing too.
but oh, the struggle to keep awake.
it's like i was paid to keep awake.
ok, today's friday!! and my free pay is going to end on tuesday. i don't know if they're going to extend my stay, but i doubt not. why would they want to extend my stay for keeping awake. if they'd any job they would shove it to my face already.
never knew i could know so much about hollywood's gossips and entertainment news.
ah.. i'll just go play yahoo games.. again.
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