"It's getback time."

..declared Mother Earth. she seems terribly angry this year. "no, it's not enough!" she shrieked. "It's not ever going to be enough for whatever you've done to me!!" An earthquake. The ground rumbled and suddenly, there was an uproar. The earth rised and split up like a baked muffin, and it's filling started jetting out. "It's the end!!!! It's the end!!!!!!" her shrill laughter resounded in every corner of the earth.
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and why people still continue to work their asses off, trying to get by month by month, dreading every morning waking up with a curse upon their lips, and feeling unhappy at their work and workplaces? is this how you would want to live your life, if you know that you're going to die the next day? wasting 9 hours doing something you wish to get out off every single minute you're at it? get home, find that you're dead beat, and then you sleep, to wake up cursing again. how fulfilling a life like that can be..?

i often think now, what life, a fulfilling one, should be like.. yeah, happiness. and happiness can come in many many different ways, depending on individuals. some like to shop, some like to go on holidays. all these need money, so they hafta go back to their jobs. but should happiness be only left on weekends, to shop, to do anything you're happy with? that's sad.

how do you determine what jobs can make you feel happy, so that it goes both ways? i often wonder about that but only to have people tell me that your interest and happiness found in that job will one day just be reduced to boredom and frustration. i even heard that this person rather not have something he likes to be his job, cos it'll kill his interest. huh?

are we stuck in this shithole? no way out of this?

i don't know. i'm fumbling around. i applied for relief teaching. and i was thinking of going into full time tutoring. (how i get the kids, i don't know. gotta ask around) that's some sorta in preparation to become a full fledged teacher. then i was thinking, yah, PE classes, English.. and Art & Craft? subjects i like! and kids, i've got mixed feelings. i like kids. but to play with them, is very much different from teaching them when they can hardly warm their seats for one hour.

try lo?

i was thinking.. since i'm young anyway, take this time to find out. not when i'm old and stuck in a particular industry.

stupid capitalism. if only, prolly all of us are self-sufficient. grow our own vegetables, and rear our own chickens and cows. prolly things will be much simpler.