i've spoken too soon. the day i posted up that blog... it was a mistake. i've not got a time to stop and.. just do about anything. hell, there were like a few times that my urine was about to spurt out but i don't even have time to go to the toilet.

all the bad karma, accumulated and blasted at one full force at my face.

but prolly, being busy is good. time passes by exceptionally quickly.

boy, it's going to be march soon. argh, we're getting old too fast.

speaking of old, i'm looking old and wrinkly like a preserved prune. got, like, 2nd degree burns from mighty Mr. Sun... last sunday during IVP archery competition in NUS. (where JX got 2nd in his category!) everyone at work said to me, "wow, lobster!" "wow, roasted pig!" "wow, char siew!" or any food that is red in colour. when they asked, "suntanning huh?".. i thought, "then it must be a suntanning session gone wrong, man. i'm roasted. if i had went to tan, it wouldn't be this colouuuuuurrrr..."

and i'm peeling like mad, i am starting to look like a cow. have been scratching myself for the past few days like a monkey and looking like a skin diseased patient.

but i don't deny that the part where i peeled off a whole patch of my skin is exhilarating. ah hahaha..

it looks gross tho', and JX didn't know what to do or say to stop me. i don't think anyone would like to breathe in small teeny particles of another person's body. like, dead little bits.

how!! how!!! only one more day to monday! and i looked like a cow!

p.s.: i got through the 1st selection for the American MNC co. but............... argh......... i don't feel like going for the 2nd interview...!

My boss is back, but I'm still as free.. (-_-)

Cos she's too busy to give me work.. for now.

Arh...

Got an interview tomorrow during lunch with an American MNC company.. heard that I can request for a higher-than-norm pay. Hm!

But that also meant that I gotta work hard. And there definitely has more work for me to do - like I've got to have my fingers in everything.

Of course, yeah, I gotta be value for money.

Let's just see how the interview goes. I feel that it's going to be pretty intimidating - am going to be interviewed by the HR manager and a director already...(?!) ...I'm happy at this job I'm at now. The people here are nice. And I'm getting used to the environment here already. AND, I've got a good old friend here with me now. One big turnoff would be the adaptation to a new environment, again......

But... argh.. It's a perm job that is going to offer a good pay. And it's more accessible.

Haiya, I'll just think about my choices if I'm offered in the first place.

do you sometimes wonder........

1) when was the last time you laughed really hard and really happily?
2) when was the last time you stopped rushing about and look at nature's work around you?
3) when was the last time you stopped thinking about what others have not done for you, but what they have?
4) when was the last time you looked at the blue sky and take in a deep happy breath?
5) when was the last time you took a good look at your parents?
6) when was the last time you told them that you love them?
7) when was the last time you tried something that you have never before?
8) when was the last time you did your body a favour and take a rest? or exercise?
9) when was the last time you follow your feet to where they lead you?
10) about your own existence..?

...things i have to do today.

zzzzzzzzzz...

too much time to slack isn't a good sign right. it shows that they can prolly do without me.

hm..

but there is no use pretending there's something to be busy on, when there isn't anything to do?

anyways, Valentine's day is around the corner, but i do not have the slightest idea how the day's going to be like. nor what to get for my boy. i doubt he has any idea too. to the more pragmatic/less romantic ones, they will say Valentine's day just a very commercialised day, like how Christmas is getting now. inflated prices for anything red or pink or in ribbons on that day. so some refuse to celebrate it on that day. smart, or lack of romanticism? but again, a meal for 2 that day can rocket to such exorbitant prices, you think that couples only eat on that day.

but i think you can celebrate romanticism specially just for zero bucks.

the best things in life, are often, free, anyway. unless the day's weather is bad, actually. in which, you'll have nowhere to go, and nothing to do. but again, it wouldn't matter, if he/she is by you.

blogging from work...

why am i always so free at work, and am able to blog from the office?

i seriously don't know.

my boss is outta town today, and she didn't even tell me yesterday. and she won't be back till tomorrow evening? and didn't leave any message or work for me to do. asked around for work to do. but... nothing at the moment.

and i hopped onto the job of binding booklets and punching holes. yes, i'm bored..

drank 2 bottles of water and went to toilets 3 times?

*tick tock tick tock*

it's gonna be a loooooooonnnng day.......................................

i'm back in office, i can't believe it either.

i dragged myself to work, although i felt really tired in the morning. telling myself not to excuse myself for being lazy. i haven't gone to the toilet for rather a long time already, i should be ok?

but i don't know why i feel so sleepy and giddy.

and it gets worse through the day... at lunchtime, trudging back to office alone with my dull food, my world started to sway left and right. i couldn't really focus my eyes and an image of myself walking like a drunk with crossed eyes emerged. and i wanted to laugh.

but i was feeling really giddy and weak.

ahhh.. i'm such a neh neh!!

gah.. at least i'm not shitting my life out already.

it's monday, and i'm home. feeling weak and a little jittery from the antibiotics that HARDLY HELPED AT ALL.

i'm still going to the toilet.

friday diarrhoea, go see doctor. saturday was still ok, i thought i was getting better, and there was a dinner at some expensive restaurant with my dad's relatives which i had to go. and with that teeny little rich food that i had, i went to toilet on sunday like what, 10 times? more than that?

everyone tells me to see another doctor.

*tears hair* i don't want my stools to be examined!!!!!!!!!! rather, i don't want to collect my shit!!!

much less to be hospitalised ah.

ying was hospitalised for a few days cos she had food poisoning too. supposedly from a fresh abalone she ate at home. vomit vomit vomit.

if you ask me, i rather have diarrhoea. less tiring. just sit on the toilet bowl. and splat. for vomiting, you gotta bend over, and feel your stomach heave and overturn and feel everything gushing outta your mouth. not to mention the aftertaste of a vomiting session.

***intermission***

just came outta toilet. i don't even use toilet paper now. it would have been a raw spot now if i'd used toilet paper each time i go to toilet. like sandpapered raw. so i wash myself and come out with my bottoms all wet.

i'm such a sad case.

i have a bad cough and each night i coughed like i've got tubercolosis. and each time i cough, i'm scared that the force wrecking my body will cause my diarrhoea to shoot out. like, imagine, lungs out of my mouth, and entrails and stomach outta my ass.

what a sight. in fact, last night was a night verging on a scenario like that. i was coughing so badly i woke the whole family up.

am i dying!

my sister was saying something abut having to detoxify after all the junk food we ate during the CNY. i added, "i'm heavily into it right now (and i can't stop)."

oh no.. ......................not again....

it costed almost 30 bucks. and the doctor said why do i have so many problems. some 100-day cough and er, food poisoning?

and there's visiting still this weekend. *groan*

and guess what, as i am typing this darn blog out at home, my computer is missing its mouse. dammit. who else but she removed it?! normally when she's home, she hogs the computer the WHOLE time. noooooooo, no one can touch it! "OI, i'm doing my stuffs!" "OI, i'm using it first!" "i want to write some songs." "i want to download..." (and then grabbed the mouse from you)

ARRRRGH!!!

and today, she's not home early, but she took the bloody mouse to work in the morning?! presumably. NOBODY NEEDS TO USE THE DAMN COMPUTER AT HOME?! ONLY SHE CAN?! wa lao!!! dammit. S.E.L.F.I.S.H!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gahh. i don't have mood to carry on blogging anymore.

i'm back from shanghai over the chinese new year. and 3 days into work already.

and i'm blardy ill.

i'm coughing my lungs out when the moon comes up, and today, i exploded with water in the toilet cubicle. if i ate something wrong in shanghai, and my body only reacted today - 3 days after i returned, there must be something definitely wrong to start with.

there's so much to say about my stay in shanghai.

but it all came out in the toilet today.

all i could say is:

1) the people there shove and push like it's rush hour every minute. doesn't matter that they're armed with joss sticks. they burn you with them. and scatter ash on you. which brings me to...

2) they don't respect their sacred grounds at all. rubbish everywhere in the temple, joss sticks thrown on the floor to burn, light their joss sticks from the fire on the ground, and they spit. you wonder why do they even bother to pay money to enter the temple to pray to the gods. yes, you gotta pay to get in. so you wonder, where do all that blardy money go to.

3) their service is freaking bad.

4) you can bargain just about anything. even for the bill for the meal at a restaurant.

5) you can bargain up to 1/3 or 1/4 of the price they quote.

6) their food can be really salty and oily.

7) but have some nice food though. like, bing tang hu lu or bing tang chao mei. basically fruits coated with a thin layer of sugar coating. YUM.

8) the people there have absolutely flawless and beautiful skin.

9) the children there are really cute, wrapped up like dumplings and tottering around with flushed red cheeks.

10) the city is almost a photocopy of Singapore.

11) the city is really beautifully litted up. exorbitant electrical bills.

12) i hate freaking cold weathers. so damn cold and yet no snow.

..gotta rush to toilet!